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Why aren’t you posting?

The world might be vicious and treacherous and deadly, but it couldn’t kill laughter. Laughter, like love, has power to survive the worst things life has to offer. And to do it with style. 

Blood Rites By Jim Butcher

I’m a slacker. I know. Not only have I not been posting, but I have not been reading. I barely have the energy to pick up books and read a page. But there are reasons for my absence. Here is why:

1) I FINALLY FINISHED MY THESIS! I turned it in and defended it! Last Thursday! My whole body feels the lightening of the stress. It was as if I had weights dangling off of me, and they turned into birds and flew away. I’M DONE!!

2) My adviser and I had a talk. I decided NOT to continue on with comprehensive exams and dissertation. Meaning, No Dr. Kwon. It was a hard and easy decision at the same time. Hard because I felt like a quitter. By not finishing it, was I saying, “I know I’m not smart enough, so I quit.” Am I failure? But my adviser told me “You are brilliant, but I don’t think you want to do this.” And he was right. I was not motivated to finish. Research was NOT a direction I wanted to go. And hearing someone who is 10 times smarter than me say that I’m smart was a huge ego boost. In the end I realized, I wasn’t quitting, but I was starting something new.

3) Travels, visits, holidays. This is just a busy time of year. Just went to Chicago, sister coming for thanksgiving, and in a few weeks going home for the holidays. There is no break. It’s cleaning, packing, unpacking, cleaning, and the circle goes on.

4) I got off my depression meds. Completely. Bye bye Welbutrin XL! I went cold turkey, too. It has been nearly two weeks, so far I am still sane. No breakdowns, no tears, and no suicidal thoughts. Life is good! I have had no negative triggers lately, so there has been no tests. We’ll see what happens when I run into negative triggers.

5) The husband and I decided we needed more space. We are moving sometime in April of next year. So we are sorting through stuff, getting rid of things, etc. etc. He has been doing most of the work. He’s such a trooper. ❤

There is one major life change I have not mentioned yet. However, it will take a long post just to talk about this one item, so I’ll post about that later. As if finishing your master’s, getting off of depression meds and moving isn’t enough of a life change 😛

As for plans, I hope over the next few weeks I can settle down and read more and review more. I have huge backlog for NetGalley and Edelweiss. They will be a priority for reviews, so my regular reads may or may not get reviews. Sorry for that! But I hope to get back to my creative writing, also.

For a long time, life froze me from moving forward. I was stuck. Now after all that hard work and a few laughs later–I’m finally moving to Act 2!

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Posted by on November 27, 2013 in Uncategorized


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Bipolar Days

“‘Cause you’re hot then you’re cold
You’re yes then you’re no
You’re in then you’re out
You’re up then you’re down
You’re wrong when it’s right
It’s black and it’s white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up”

“Hot N Cold” by Katy Perry

Those lyrics epitomize how I’ve been feeling lately. One moment I’m excited about being done with the thesis, the next stressing out about it. One moment I’m nervous on getting the house clean for the husband’s homecoming, and the next picking out a cute homecoming dress.

All these mood swings have kept me busy along with the real things that have kept me busy. So I’m behind on my reviews. Tomorrow I’ll write up my review for Biting Bad, and then my review for the ARC of Heart of Venom.

Hopefully, I’ll have a chance to read City of Bones before my husband comes home so that I can drag him to the movie theatres to go watch it. Don’t worry husband, I won’t force you to watch it if it is filled with teen angst (well, too much teen angst). And I probably won’t review it as the book as been out for awhile. But if I get a chance to go see the movie, maybe I’ll do a compare and contrast? We’ll see.

I still have to review a few more ARCs, and of course prepare for my thesis presentation, my trip to LA, and my trip home. A lot to do! Expect me to be dead when I finally reach the beach around the end of Sept. Or at least behaving like the dead and sleeping on the beach. At least the mood swings will be over with!

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Posted by on August 17, 2013 in Uncategorized


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Lessons for a Writer from Project Runway

“Originality is nothing but judicious imitation”


Normally I’m not a fan of reality TV. But I love watching HGTV shows and Project Runway. I love the lightened drama and the various types of colors and styles that come out of those shows. But mostly, they speak to the artist in me. I’m not a painter, sculptor, or fashion designer. I’m pretty bad when it comes to home design. But Creativity is creativity, and for an author, there is a lot to learn on these shows.

Watching the first two episodes of project runway, and reminded of the past seasons, Here are some things that I think transcend all types of creativity, and apply especially, to writing.

1) Tell a story…

Duh. When it comes to writing, we are obviously telling a story. But it is more than just the here and now. A lot of the designers on project runway choose a character who has a past and a future. When we are writing our stories, we have to remember that our characters do not just live on that page, but are a person who has layers and layers of history and dreams that inform

2) … but yours (or in the case of writing, the main character’s) isn’t the only story.

Especially in team challenges, the designers on project runway are either competing with each other to be better than their teammates, or they lose their own voice to their pushy teammates. Likewise, when an author is writing a story, the main character isn’t the only one in the story. The cast of characters play a part in the larger story. The setting plays a part. Plot points. Genre. The moral. They all add to the overall story, and we can’t lose those details because we are only writing about the main character.

3) Be true to your aesthetic.

Sometimes the designers take a risk or go boring, because their work was criticized the week before. The art becomes something different from their design aesthetic. Different from the language that their art usually speaks.

Similarly, authors are told to write what they know. Even in genre fiction, authors write from the heart, finding similarities of surroundings or stories that they relate to. Sure, I would love to write a historical romance set in Shakespearian times, but how good would it honestly be?

4) Be original.

Again, a duh. But sometimes designers come out with dresses that I can find at Ross, on discount. Similarly, why are there authors out there still trying to write about sexy vampires? Why are we still coming up with stories about teenagers falling in love in an unrealistic and (apparently) “true love” romance? Aren’t there more stories to tell?

5) Make it work

How many times have we heard Tim Gunn say this? But really, writer’s block sucks balls. With my thesis, it literally sets me into panic attacks. But even with my creative writing, when I hit writer’s block, all the stupid and negative thoughts pop up and halt my progress. And, you know what? I have to push on through. Write that bad scene, chapter, dialogue. Get past it and move on. You can come back and clean it up. At some point, you may hit inspiration and rewrite the whole scene. MAKE IT WORK.

It’s hard to come up with something completely new. But we humans have the same dreams and make the same mistakes. It’s just reimagined to fit our age and culture. Reimagine, create and develop. You’ll create something beautiful and worthy of the runway.

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Posted by on July 26, 2013 in Uncategorized


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I’m back!

“Shall I atone for old sins or make some new ones?”

A Dance with Dragons by George R.R. Martin

I am back from my vacation! Okay, I have been back for 5 days, but I have been recovering 😉 It turns out being in 4 different time zones in less than 3 weeks is hard on a person. The trip was amazing for the most part. At times emotionally exhausting. But it was what I needed to get myself focused again.

I am back to writing, thesising. I am trying to get myself back on a workout schedule and healthy eating, but that has been hard with all the recuperating. I’ve been sleeping a lot, ha ha. But it’s all a matter of getting into the swing of things.

As far as my reading goes, I finished A Dance With Dragons. It had slow moments, but I enjoyed it. 4 out of 5 stars. And now, I am with everyone waiting for book 6, that won’t be out till around 2015. I read the whole Charlie Madigan series, and they impressed me. I was disappointed to find out the publishers didn’t renew the series. I think they are losing out on a good value here! Overall I gave the series 4 out of 5 stars.

I read The Secret Keeper, written by Kate Morton. It was a chick lit, set in England both in present time, and during WW2. Most of the book moved slowly, but I loved the ending. 3 out of 5 stars.

I also read two erotic fiction books. The latest Shadowlands, This is Who I Am, was about Sam, a dominant and a sadist, and Linda, a woman who was kidnapped by slavers, who doesn’t want to admit that she is a masochist and a submissive. I thought Sam and Linda were both great leads, but the plot left a lot to be desired. I particularly found the family dramas unbelievable. Plus, I am not into S&M. I also read the first book in the Wicked Lovers series, Wicked Ties. I heard a lot of good things about Jack, but I found him immature and controlling. I think the Shadowlands heroes have ruined all other erotic fiction heroes for me.

I didn’t write formal reviews for these books as most of them were read while I was out of town. But if anyone wants a formal review for any of these books, let me know, and I’ll write up a full review! I have a couple of posts planned, so expect a few more posts from me before the month is out. I know I keep disappearing for weeks at a time, but I would rather write a few good posts than a lot of mediocre ones. Hope you can forgive me! 😉

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Posted by on June 21, 2013 in Uncategorized


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Writing keeps me busy from… Writing?

“I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We’ve been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can’t live that way”

“Unwritten” by Natasha Bedingfield

As usual, I haven’t blogged in awhile. Sorry! I haven’t blogged lately because life kept me busy. I had friends coming in and out of town, and I got a whole bunch of cleaning and organizing done. But mostly, I spent my time on my other writing projects.

First, of course there was the thesis. Within the next couple of weeks, I will have a complete draft of it done! Then I will be working on my slides and formatting everything. Early April maybe for defense 🙂 Let the celebrations commence. (Yes, it’s a bit early, but I’ll take any victories.)

Secondly, I kept busy with my writing class, tasked with writing an original short piece. I’m quite proud because it’s the best piece of fiction I have ever written. My talents are nowhere near where I want them to be, but my writing style has improved.

I had a sad realization in class: my Marisol project needs to go in the back burner. Through the class, I realized that Marisol’s story, in its current structure and plot line, was a dead end. However, with that short piece, I have a new idea blooming. In a couple of days, I’ll post about my new direction.

Tomorrow, I will write a review on “Black City” by Christina Henry. So now you know of 2 blogs that are coming up. Sorry it’s been a slow month, but I’m trying to pick it back up!

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Posted by on February 26, 2013 in Uncategorized


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Crazy for Breakfast

“Crazy was what we had for breakfast when we ran out of Corn Flakes.”

Hunt the Moon by Karen Chance

I woke up this morning wondering what crazy thing would happen to derail my whole day, and I laughed…

Sorry I didn’t post much in November. Everything I wanted to get done last month did not happen.

NaNoWriMo was pretty much a bust for me.  I wrote 8500 words, which is nowhere close to 50 thousand. Progress on thesis has been slow in general, but churning out any work has been hard.

I am even behind in my reading and tv shows. I have so many books to read and finish before the end of this year! In order to meet my reading challenge, I have to read 14 books by the end of the month. Which would be easy under normal circumstances, but not lately apparently.

I’m not depressed or sick. I’m just busy! Last month was filled with running around and errands. My husband and I were preparing for his deployment, and tried to spend as much time together as we could before he left. There was also Thanksgiving and a wedding I had to attend back home so that took out about a week or so.

I need to remind myself that life happens. And while it may derail certain activities, it also brings pleasant (sometimes crazy) surprises.

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Posted by on December 3, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Easy was for people too weak to suck it up and do what needed to be done. And I wasn’t weak. Not anymore.

Spider’s Bite by Jennifer Estep

November is National Novel Writing Month, or as the writers like to call it: NANOWRIMO.  It is a challenge to write a novel (50,000 words) in one whole month.  I am nowhere close to writing a full length novel, and I am still working on crucial edits for my thesis.  However, I am using this as a catalyst to write/rewrite 50,000 words this month.  It works out to about an average of 1700 to 2200 words a day– 5 or 6 pages of writing. Between my thesis and creative writing, can I do it? I am at a place where I can take on a big challenge and not fall apart.  It’s not going to be easy, but I think I can do it.

Day 1

Thesis: 100 words
Creative Writing: 1207 words
Total: 1307 words

Outside of book reviews, in all my other posts I’ll update you about my daily and total count.  Wish me luck!

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Posted by on November 2, 2012 in Uncategorized


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