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Decisions Matter

“…when you know life isn’t forever, the decisions you make matter. You don’t have the next hundred years to try to fix a mistake.”

Dying Bites by D.D. Barant

I was sitting at home, trying to decide what I should do about the truck. Should I sell it? Should I get it registered? Should I wait around and save money to buy a car? I ponder and then pick up my phone to text the husband to see what he thinks.

But wait. He’s deployed. Not here. I can’t simply text. I can’t call. He may or may not be online at some point today.

There are so many things that are hard about deployments. The distance, the increased responsibility. The loneliness. The fact that I have to wash my own damn dishes!

But it’s the little things like this that trips me up. There is no easy way to ask my husband his opinion. I just have to decide. No input, no “team decision making”. Just make a decision. Sure, that’s fun when I’m trying to decide whether I should buy that new book or not (the answer is always yes when I’m making the decision by myself!). But, it’s not so easy making decisions that impact both of us as a family. The decision I make matters for our life together and we should be making them together. I hate making them alone.

Less than 9 months…

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Posted by on December 18, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Crazy for Breakfast

“Crazy was what we had for breakfast when we ran out of Corn Flakes.”

Hunt the Moon by Karen Chance

I woke up this morning wondering what crazy thing would happen to derail my whole day, and I laughed…

Sorry I didn’t post much in November. Everything I wanted to get done last month did not happen.

NaNoWriMo was pretty much a bust for me.  I wrote 8500 words, which is nowhere close to 50 thousand. Progress on thesis has been slow in general, but churning out any work has been hard.

I am even behind in my reading and tv shows. I have so many books to read and finish before the end of this year! In order to meet my reading challenge, I have to read 14 books by the end of the month. Which would be easy under normal circumstances, but not lately apparently.

I’m not depressed or sick. I’m just busy! Last month was filled with running around and errands. My husband and I were preparing for his deployment, and tried to spend as much time together as we could before he left. There was also Thanksgiving and a wedding I had to attend back home so that took out about a week or so.

I need to remind myself that life happens. And while it may derail certain activities, it also brings pleasant (sometimes crazy) surprises.

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Posted by on December 3, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Share, Care, Love

“If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we’d see the day when nobody died”

“If Everyone Cared” by Nickleback

Side 1: The movie was offensive and horrible!  How can you blame people for protesting the movie?

And shuffles the violence to the back, excusing their behavior to “they don’t know any better” and leave it at that.  They also forget that Muslims work for the U.S. government, including the military and Department of State, Meaning their own brother and sister could have died, not to mention their neighbor’s son or bosses daughter.

Side 2: It’s basic freedom of speech!  These people are violent, cruel, and oppressive, and we should bomb the hell out of them.

And they are too ignorant to realize that these people have a different world mindset than theirs.  That while violence should NEVER be tolerated, freedom of speech is right up there with the freedom to assemble.  And if you think the issues are only about this video, then you are missing a lot of foreign policy information.  Let me tell you a secret: It’s not about the videos.

Sad thing is both viewpoints feed into each other’s negativities and divisive attitudes that make more room for hatred and violence.  Congratulations.  I truly hope you are proud of yourself.  Here, have a cookie.

As a Muslim, our first and most vigorous response is to denounce the violence that murdered people senselessly. Our primary goal should be to develop awareness and tolerance, and educated people that we do not all resemble violence.  Stop being defensive. Listen and teach.

As an American, we should stop and consider how we got into this mess in the first place.  It is our “take over the world” mentality and “kill them all, let god sort them out” attitude that has people enraged and acting in RETALIATION.  We should try to fix this problem through understanding and tolerance.  Stop being so defensive of rights that other people may not necessarily believe in.  Listen and teach.

Share, Care, Love. ❤

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Posted by on September 16, 2012 in Uncategorized


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“I’m not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong
I don’t regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I’m going home.”

Home by Daughtry

First of all, an apology for the past week and next couple of weeks.  I will not have very many posts as I am very busy.  The husband left town on a training mission, I had a few FRG stuff to do, and a wedding to prepare for.

ANDDDDD of course visiting home!  I leave Wednesday and come back on Monday. I am very excited, I haven’t visited home in 2 years.  I can’t wait to see all my friends and catch up to them.

I am looking forward to seeing green grass, feel humidity and cooler temperatures.  Yes, Maryland has been hit with some very bad heat, but I’m hoping it will be cooler when I visit.  At least cooler than here and less “the sun  burning off your skin”.

The army life can be exhausting at times, and it’s good that I have people and places to visit that anchor me when I feel lonely.  Hopefully, going home will help with that.

I’m going home 🙂

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Posted by on July 8, 2012 in Uncategorized


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“Cause I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all”

‘Pain” by Three Days Grace

OUCH.  Both the left and right side of my lower abdomen.  However, I welcome the pain.  Why? Because it is a good sign in the journey of trying to get pregnant.

This journey is difficult for most woman, but especially for those with infertility issues.  Talking about your period is taboo, and it’s worse when you are trying to get pregnant.  If you have infertility issues, you are even more discreet, because who wants to admit they are failing at what makes them a woman?

I try to stay relaxed about it.  In my case, I still have a few things to finish (like Thesis) and losing a bit of weight before getting pregnant can only be a good thing.  But, I want to have a baby. Plus, Army life makes it difficult, because the husband is always away. Which means we do not have as much time as I would like.

So we started with infertility treatments.  Our first step was diagnosis, which was PCOS back in January.  Started Metformin in February, and then first round of Clomid in May.  Second round–and now I have cramp-like pains in my lower abdomen.

So yes, I welcome the pain.  It’s better than the emotional pain of my body failing me again.


Posted by on June 13, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Love Story

Romeo, save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult but it’s real.
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess.
It’s a love story, baby, just say, “Yes”.

“Love Story” Taylor Swift

The highlight of my day yesterday was starting a new book, Lover Reborn by J.R. Ward.  I haven’t started a new book in so long, about 6 weeks!  A this point last year, I was reading 5 or 6 books a week.  So far I like the book.  Tohr is one of my favorite characters as is JM, so this book is good about that.

I have a busy day today though, so I doubt I’ll finish the book.  I have to do a few errand like stuff and go to an FRG meeting.  At some point I will sit down and start editing Chapter 3 of Marisol.  There is a lot of puffing up to do, and finding out ways to describe “stuff”.  Like using words such as actions and emotion instead of “stuff”.  This chapter needs a lot of work because when I wrote it, I kept a lot of things bare bones.  However, when this chapter is done, I will be sharing the first 3 chapters with some of you to get your opinions.

Also, in other news, it is my third anniversary with my super awesome husband.  Romeo and Juliet stories tend to end in tragedy, but ours was a successful love story! ❤ happy anniversary to the best husband in the world. I love you times infinity, plus 1.

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Posted by on May 24, 2012 in Uncategorized


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